Hello world. The quietest world. It has been a long time since I've updated. Well, no one reads my blog anyways. But I like to talk to myself. Ok, no one understands me. I'm weird and I could be crazy at times.
First off, I have not been feeling myself this past few days. I don't know why. Maybe I know why. Only that I don't want to let it out. I rather keep things to myself. Seven days have passed since 2010, and i want to do something good this year. I want to study hard and get to higher nitec and go to poly. So i'm going to really study hard. But only God knows where I'm going to go in the future. And i hope it will be a good place. A really good place. (: Someone told me to always think positively. And i told that someone to smile always. But I, myself didn't do that. Shit have been going through my mind all day and night. I just can't stop thinking about it. I think negatively. But I'm trying to think positively. It is so hard. Why is it so hard? People may think that I'm talking shit here, I'm soft or something. Well let them say what they want to say. This shit I'm talking here is my shit. So fuck ya'll. I just wanna get things straight. Everyone does. I have this feeling, the feeling comes without warning. This feeling makes me want to hit something real hard till my fist bleed. But I try very hard not to do that. Because I told that someone I won't do it. And because it scares her. So will try my best. My fists are still normal. That means I'm holding myself back. It has been days, she has been busy with studies. And I really miss her. :'( But I understand that. What she's going through and stuffs. She's taking her O's this year, and I wish her the best for her studies. And I want her to know that she will always be in my heart and mind everyday no matter what. No doubt. I need to settle some stuffs. Stuffs like this guy getting all the girls he wants and all the girls don't know who he really is. But I let them girl of his know by themselves. Because I AM tired of making trouble, tired of fighting and tired of talking shit about people. This is a beginning of a new year, and i want to make this the beginning of my new life. Miserable or not, i will handle this myself and maybe the help of my friends. (: I will do whatever is best to get what I want.
Think positively. Smile always. (:
posted by IZAD N., Thursday, January 06, 2011
