Muhammad Sharizad B M S.
A.K.A Izaaaaaaad. 16 this year. TeckWhyean. 09 July. Perfect? Not my style. Tag to be linked!
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No matter what you say or do, I will still like you. I don't mind if you scold vulgarities to me. It won't change the way I feel about you. I just hope that you will change. For the good of it. Just know that if someone has hurt you real bad, you do not have to hurt others. Keep that in mind. And I will always text you goodnight. I hope the conversation does not affect the way we are now. I can wait till whenever. And I will. Believe that bruh. You might think that I'm the kind of guy that go for a lot of girls, have a lot girls. Well I'm not and I don't. Please know that. I'm tired of people not believing me, so I decide not to care about that. And I really don't care what people think of me either. For your info, I only have two ex-gf and still people don't believe that. All the things that I'm saying here, is the truth. If you really don't believe me, that's fine. But only God knows that I'm really telling the truth. And talking shit is just a waste of breath. That's why I don't do it regularly. I don't talk shit at my blog. I type what I want to say, but I just couldn't say it. Because there's no one to talk to. And I'm hoping it's you that I can talk to, let my feelings go free. It's really hard keeping this feeling. I just want to let it go. I've been hurt a lot of times too, but I let the past be the past. I hope you'll do that to. I will wait for you. So, doing your best making me not to like you, whatever you do or say, it will be quite hard. Because I don't give up easily for love. This ain't me talking, or rather typing shit. This is the truth, coming from the bottom of my heart. Truthfully.
posted by IZAD N., Sunday, January 16, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Hi. I feel like you're avoiding me. I don't know why. Maybe you are. Why? I need to know why. I just want to know. Maybe I did something. Something that I didn't notice, that hurt you? Maybe? Or just you don't want to talk to me. You've been different lately. I totally miss you. I miss the times that I've spent with you. The last time that I saw you. I had fun with you that day. Two days after, you've stop messaging me. I really don't know why. Are you too busy with school? I doubt that. I know that you message other people. I'm not angry or anything. I just feel different since then. Though I might seem happy all the time, but behind those smiles, there's sadness. I've been spending my about half of my time thinking of you everyday. But thinking about you makes me more sad. And I feel awkward wanting to talk to you now. That really sucks. You told me to get rid of my tattoo. I promise you I will do it. By anytime this year. Believe that. I have nothing more to say. Goodbye.
posted by IZAD N., Saturday, January 15, 2011
My neighbours thinks I'm crazy,
But they don't understand.
You're all I had,
You're all I had...
Talking to the moon,
trying to get to you...
posted by IZAD N., Saturday, January 15, 2011
I don't know why you don't feel like talking to anyone. You used to be fun to talk with. Maybe there's something wrong. Something that you just want to keep to yourself. I understand that. I wanted to ask what's wrong with you, but I think that would make you more mood-less. I know everyone's life has ups and downs. I don't blame you for keeping things to yourself. Because I, myself do that too. I just hope that you'll be okay soon. I just miss you. But I know that you are busy with school and other stuffs. I wish that you would feel the same way I do towards you. But that's up to you. I don't want to be without you. I don't want a broken heart anymore. Something that I feel I need to say, but up till now I've always been afraid that you'll never come around. Just know that no matter what you do, good or bad, even things that's disappointing to me, I will always love you. There's something about you that is just so one of a kind. But that's not the only reason why I love you. There's a lot more. Believe me. I will tell you everything. I've been going a hard time too. Just like you, I get lonely too. I'm just afraid that you'll just walk away. I don't want that, please. I really don't. I want you to be happy. If you're happy, I'm happy. Even though you are not with me. I miss you so so much. ): Just want to see you. Even if it's just five mins. I don't mind, as long as I get to see you. You'll always stay in my heart. But one day.... I'll talk about that later. Goodnight, feel better. (:
I love you.
posted by IZAD N., Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Hello. Blogging cos I want to. Don't care if people read it. Five days have passed of school, and I've only made three friends. Plus my secondary school friend, that's four. I'm so lazy to make friends. And the students in my class would think that I'm anti-social. But I ain't. Ok. Fuck that. I'll make friends later. Slowly. Done.
Appreciate things in life. The way you are, the things you have. Be thankful of what Allah have given to you. Love and respect yourself. Everything you do or the things that you will do, is up to you. So don't do stupid stuff or you will regret it someday.
Everyday, as I walk, I look down and think about life, love and things I've done. Just to repay all the stupid thing I had done. As honest I'll be. People still don't believe that I'm telling the truth. That really gets irritating sometimes. But as the days pass by, I think I will get use to it. I don't understand some people and people surely don't understand me. Believe that.
At class, I keep losing my concentration. I always think her. I cannot stop thinking of her. I promised myself something. And I will definitely keep that promise. I don't mind if she don't want to talk to me. But sooner or later, she will. That's what I believe. People can say whatever they want about me. Cos I really don't care. It hurts me sometimes when I think that she don't want to talk to me. But I got to get through it. That is live. People like me can't get what we always wanted. Some could, some can't. I just miss her. I think that's why I'm thinking too much. Love is life. But no love doesn't mean no life. Get that to your head. Fight for the one you love. Love doesn't come just like that. You need to know what I'm going through, then you will quite understand me. But there's a small chance that you can get to know what I'm going through cos I like to keep things to myself.
Love. Live Live. Then I'm Dead.
posted by IZAD N., Friday, January 14, 2011
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Just like you, i get lonely too.
Everyday, at home, in school, I keep thinking about her. I just can't get her out of my mind. And I'm planning not to. Even though it hurts sometimes, I just got to deal with it. Think positively. I really don't care what people call me. You can call me whatever you want. You can even call me cold. All I know that you people have nothing else to do. So, fuck ya'll. Bye. I don't want to talk no more.
posted by IZAD N., Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
This video is referring to someone. Ok? Goodbye. (:
Knew I would keep you well, knew I would fight for you.
Knew I would pull out my heart and bring it right to you.
Think positively. Smile always.
posted by IZAD N., Friday, January 07, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Hello world. The quietest world. It has been a long time since I've updated. Well, no one reads my blog anyways. But I like to talk to myself. Ok, no one understands me. I'm weird and I could be crazy at times.
First off, I have not been feeling myself this past few days. I don't know why. Maybe I know why. Only that I don't want to let it out. I rather keep things to myself. Seven days have passed since 2010, and i want to do something good this year. I want to study hard and get to higher nitec and go to poly. So i'm going to really study hard. But only God knows where I'm going to go in the future. And i hope it will be a good place. A really good place. (: Someone told me to always think positively. And i told that someone to smile always. But I, myself didn't do that. Shit have been going through my mind all day and night. I just can't stop thinking about it. I think negatively. But I'm trying to think positively. It is so hard. Why is it so hard? People may think that I'm talking shit here, I'm soft or something. Well let them say what they want to say. This shit I'm talking here is my shit. So fuck ya'll. I just wanna get things straight. Everyone does. I have this feeling, the feeling comes without warning. This feeling makes me want to hit something real hard till my fist bleed. But I try very hard not to do that. Because I told that someone I won't do it. And because it scares her. So will try my best. My fists are still normal. That means I'm holding myself back. It has been days, she has been busy with studies. And I really miss her. :'( But I understand that. What she's going through and stuffs. She's taking her O's this year, and I wish her the best for her studies. And I want her to know that she will always be in my heart and mind everyday no matter what. No doubt. I need to settle some stuffs. Stuffs like this guy getting all the girls he wants and all the girls don't know who he really is. But I let them girl of his know by themselves. Because I AM tired of making trouble, tired of fighting and tired of talking shit about people. This is a beginning of a new year, and i want to make this the beginning of my new life. Miserable or not, i will handle this myself and maybe the help of my friends. (: I will do whatever is best to get what I want.
